I got sick :(

Throat thing. It makes be swallow a lot of salvia and mucus that builds up. Throat is hella sore, and I’ve become super sensative to the cold. GG.

Timestamp – 4:52 PM

Bit of a spat

Yeah, at dinner today, I was sitting eating with Jesse, Chris, and Niamh. We were talking about what classes to take for Winter quarter, one thing led to another, and next thing I know I’m getting earfuls about how you can’t so shit with a BA in English and being and engineer is the most glorious, most demanded job of the universe. Chris was silent for all of this though.

Not only that, I also proceeded to hear that I shouldn’t be taking German, but Chinese because “nobody speaks German.” Not even in Europe. According to these masterminded engineers, German is only spoken in Germany. Hmm. Yeah, no. Apparently, throwing around the idea of double majoring in Econ isn’t too bright either. Nope. Everything I’m doing is just a waste of my fucking time isn’t it?

I expressed my sensitivity to this, quite pissed off I might add, and you know what their responses were? First being, “you need to get more sleep Alex. You only got 7 hours last night and 4 the night before.” When that didn’t fly with me, “calm down, we’re just jealous that we have to kill ourselves for our Major every quarter and we’re just trying to feel better.”

No apology. Nada. Nothing.

I believe I then said, “Oh, well next time I’m feeling bad I’ll just kick a puppy,” Thereby leading into an awkward silence.

Seriously, so what if I’m not science minded? So what if my life isn’t mother fucking planned out each fucking quarter with an “easy to get” job at the end? Honestly though, that’s not the point. I was offended. I told my friends that they had just offended me. I specifically said that I was tired of them taking potshots at me like that. And there were no apologies. There were no promises to let up. Just an awkward silence that ended when Niamh had to go to class.

And then, much later, in Jesse and Niamh’s room watching Avatar:TLA together, there was just fun and merriment. Even during the hour of TKD inbetween with Jesse, it was hardly on my mind either. I can’t say I’m still pissed off, but seriously, nothing? I may or may not have addressed this topic before, but I have indeed noticed humans have a way of getting over things by doing absolutely nothing.

But you know something? That’s always pissed me off about people. Maybe it’s just my Asian background, or just me personally, but I don’t really think its right to not apologize. If I hurt someone’s feelings inadvertantly, time passed that they got over it, then later they would tell me about how much it bothered them back then, I’d apologize right then and there. Why? Cuz I know I’ve fucked up. People have human hearts. Human hearts get hurt. I specifically said, “you guys have just hurt me by insulting what I love to do and what I’ve chosen to do with my life.”

And there was nothing.

Timestamp – 11:01 PM

NaNoWriMo, begins!

I’m gonna try it. I’m also going to stop procrastinating on my homework. >_>

Timestamp – 1:47 AM

Morning sucked

Wow, this morning was bad. I got up at 7:30, feeling very good, but then decided an extra half hour won’t kill me. I then proceded to wake up at 9, which is the time German starts, so I had to book my ass all the over there. That wasn’t the worst of it though. You see, I didn’t do the right homework the night before. We were assigned activity I in our workbooks, of chapter 3. Not paying attention, I accidentally did chapter 2’s activity I. : (

Some more things happened today, but it’s getting late, hahaha.

Oh yeah, hamstring injuries SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

Timestamp – 1:41 AM

Follow upings.

Yeah, college life thus far as been pretty awesome, haha. I’ve met a lot of people already, and I’m definitely enjoying the chance to spread my wings. For example, I’m taking German, hahaha. That’s right, ich lerne nicht Französich, aber lerne Deutsch. I love the way it sounds, haha. I’m also taking Taekwondo over here. Of course, given from the last post you already knew all of that, but man, after so many years of wanting to try a martial art, finally getting to do one is  a blast. Thus far, I’ve learned front stance, back stance, fighting stance, walking stance, upper defence, middle defence, lower defence, knife hand block, side kick, roundhouse, and front kick. Hahaha still just a white belt, but when I put on that uniform for the first time, I just felt so… right. It’s like, after weeks of going to practice in a t-shirt and shorts, I’m finally wearing my uniform proudly.

Also, mentioned last post, I joined an Ultimate Frisbee Intramural team at my school. Team Chuchu is made of some people I met at Koinonia, a Christian fellowship on UC Davis. Now hold your horses folks, I haven’t exactly converted. It all started with eating dinner with some of Ed’s friends, who turned out to be Koinonian peoples. Then there was the Freshman Welcome celebration they did with free food and lots of fun activites. The people are just really great people, and I have a lot of fun with them. Also, I met Jesse at Koinonia, which was awesome. She’s my most regular hang out buddy at this point, haha. I’d say some more things, but right now I know she stalks my blog and like, there are complicated things going on underneath the surface between us.

*Segues* Yeah, that’s one of the things that I can’t exactly get over when it comes to blogging. There are things I want to say about people from time to time, only that those people read my blog, and would thereby know what I’m saying. You know? I can’t say like, “Oh by the way, don’t read this particular post. I don’t want to know what I said,” and etc. Even beyond talking about people, I can’t be like, “Oh I got this gift for Ed’s birthday and he’s going to be hella surprised by it,” or you know, just things like that. It just makes we wonder about how private I should make things.

If you kept an eye on my previous posts, you would have saw that I put up a protected blog post, only to take it down immediately after. At the moment, only one person knows what that post entails just because I told him/her about it over the phone, and I doubt I’ll post that back up anytime soon.

There’s so much more to talk about, specifically my classes, but I’ll save that for later in the day. I’m getting tired and my chair aggravates my hamstring. DX

Timestamp – 1:14 AM