Bit of a spat
Posted by shiokenstar on November 4, 2009
Yeah, at dinner today, I was sitting eating with Jesse, Chris, and Niamh. We were talking about what classes to take for Winter quarter, one thing led to another, and next thing I know I’m getting earfuls about how you can’t so shit with a BA in English and being and engineer is the most glorious, most demanded job of the universe. Chris was silent for all of this though.
Not only that, I also proceeded to hear that I shouldn’t be taking German, but Chinese because “nobody speaks German.” Not even in Europe. According to these masterminded engineers, German is only spoken in Germany. Hmm. Yeah, no. Apparently, throwing around the idea of double majoring in Econ isn’t too bright either. Nope. Everything I’m doing is just a waste of my fucking time isn’t it?
I expressed my sensitivity to this, quite pissed off I might add, and you know what their responses were? First being, “you need to get more sleep Alex. You only got 7 hours last night and 4 the night before.” When that didn’t fly with me, “calm down, we’re just jealous that we have to kill ourselves for our Major every quarter and we’re just trying to feel better.”
No apology. Nada. Nothing.
I believe I then said, “Oh, well next time I’m feeling bad I’ll just kick a puppy,” Thereby leading into an awkward silence.
Seriously, so what if I’m not science minded? So what if my life isn’t mother fucking planned out each fucking quarter with an “easy to get” job at the end? Honestly though, that’s not the point. I was offended. I told my friends that they had just offended me. I specifically said that I was tired of them taking potshots at me like that. And there were no apologies. There were no promises to let up. Just an awkward silence that ended when Niamh had to go to class.
And then, much later, in Jesse and Niamh’s room watching Avatar:TLA together, there was just fun and merriment. Even during the hour of TKD inbetween with Jesse, it was hardly on my mind either. I can’t say I’m still pissed off, but seriously, nothing? I may or may not have addressed this topic before, but I have indeed noticed humans have a way of getting over things by doing absolutely nothing.
But you know something? That’s always pissed me off about people. Maybe it’s just my Asian background, or just me personally, but I don’t really think its right to not apologize. If I hurt someone’s feelings inadvertantly, time passed that they got over it, then later they would tell me about how much it bothered them back then, I’d apologize right then and there. Why? Cuz I know I’ve fucked up. People have human hearts. Human hearts get hurt. I specifically said, “you guys have just hurt me by insulting what I love to do and what I’ve chosen to do with my life.”
And there was nothing.
Timestamp – 11:01 PM
